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Day 118. in which we consider error 404.

Less than a week ago, April 19, was my little sister's birthday. If she were still alive, she would have turned 25 this year. This is hard for me to wrap my head around because in my head, she's still this silly teenager. I can still see her sitting with her back to me, facing my computer, with her head phones blasting. She didn't know I had entered the room and was loudly singing in this god-awful voice that horrible "Genie in a Bottle" song. I couldn't stop laughing.

Sometimes I 'google' her name to see if I can find someone who may have known her, someone who might be able to put some puzzle pieces together for me. I know that must sound ridiculous but there seems to be answer for everything else on the internet.

What surprised me is that instead of finding someone who knew her, I found her directly - something silly and light-hearted she had written in a guest book as a teenager. The Geocities site didn't look active. I wondered how long I would still be able to find it for. Would it be there in six months if I looked again? There was a link from the guest book to her own web page hosted on Angelfire, but when I clicked on it, I reached an error 404 message which read:

Some folks can see dead people

- can you see dead pages?
Actually, we couldn't find the page you requested. Please check the URL.
Try the search box below to find more information about your topic.

I don't quite know how I feel about death in cyberspace. I have a lot to go think about now.